" Kaun Kehnda e k duniya vicchon Rabb gya.... Menu NAINA vicchon tere labhh gya .. " :) :)

I was thinking about SHIVANI only. She had made a special place in our first conversation. I could still recall the complete scene. She was looking gorgeous. SHIVANI … Shivani...Shivani… I wanted to talk to her that night. Talk about anything. I wanted to know her. I wanted to share everything thing with her that night. She had totally made me crazy. I wished to wake up earlier to see her as she had the first speech of the day. I went back to the room. I put up earphones and played the song and like my habit, I played the best that suits the situation and started humming in my mind..

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking
I am waiting as the time goes by
I think of you with every breath I take
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine
You're all I see in everything
I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever right here by my side…’

I was in bed looking up towards the roof and still thinking continuously about her. Gosh!! I check my phone to check the time. It was 5:30 am already.  I woke up and went to take a bath. I got ready at around 6:15 am and had nothing to do as such. I decided to go for a walk. While everyone was still asleep, I silently left the house and was on the road near to home to give time to myself to think...
I saw her just a week back and today, I 
couldn't stop thinking about her. How time changes!!
Love had something special that stays with it always.The sun was rising up and stars were dimming out, but my universe remained the same, I was glad that I met her and finally had a chance to talk with her. No idea, if she was feeling anything or I was just another friend to her. It was a fresh start of a friendship which I wanted to take to a different level. One thing that was stopping me was what if she had some guy in her life? What if she was committed? What if she won’t like me? Millions of thoughts ran across my mind and one answer that I got, ‘Common Bro... Get to know her first’. Sometimes, we have to listen to our mind rather than heart. It was tough, though I accepted it. I played a song and sat nearby some farms which had yellow little flowers blossoming with dew,
‘O re manva tu to baawra hai...tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai baawre… Kyun dikhaye sapne tu. Sote-jaagte... Jo barse sapne boond boond, naino ko moond moond...kaise mein kahun...dekh ana sakun...anjaane raaste... Goonja sa hai koi Iktaaara...’
Sometimes, songs say everything how we feel..... I met a girl, with laughter in her eyes, and in a single moment, my world confused. The kind of girl, that once-in-a-lifetime. And all I had to offer was me-Myself. Just to tell her once, that 'You are beautiful'.
Something happened to me after meeting her. My sleeps flew away from eyes. I felt restless. Why is so beautiful? Correct me if I am wrong, she is as charming as a full moon. She looked like flowers when she smiles and the redness of your cheeks during it, is priceless. My eyes, always awaited her. I missed her. My senses were becoming unaware without her. I was recalling the time we spent together. And then, being a small town boy, I started imaging a lot. Someday, I will land up staying with her. I will wake up and would smile when she will wake up. I want to brush her hair with my fingers. I would have everything that day. We will go out in a car, somewhere she would want to. She would lean over my shoulder and would share her story. Slowly and steadily, all pieces of love will get connected someday. I may cry someday but I would have a belief that she would be with me. I want to grow old with her. I want to look myself in her eyes, all the time. Today, my eyes were opening, which remained wet for over time. Someday, the shine over the faded mirrors will come back. We would paint our lives with mixture of colours... Whenever I would get time, I would love myself for loving her in this way. The more I will love her, I would feel it lesser....
                 " Kaun Kehnda e k duniya vicchon Rabb gya.... Menu NAINA vicchon tere labhh gya .. " :) :)
 Oh God, The love is different feeling. I feel You are somewhere in it. I want to spend my life in her shadow. The shadow of love, the shadow of care and affection. Thank YOU, I have met her whom you have made – the one for me....

The chapter of first kiss...

I took out my pen from pocket and started writing a letter cum poem, which I had written long ago and had planned to give it to someone very special to me, on the only tissue I found on that table.

I don’t worry about the dark; I know the sun is mine.

To bring me into light,

I know that it will shine. I know you are my sun.

I don’t worry about the sadness,

I know the rains will fall. To wash away all my tears,

they will come on my every call.

I know you are my rain,

I don’t worry about the world, because I fully believe in you. 

And whatever happens around,

This is how i shall always be yours forever.......

You are my world....

It is rightly said; when you are in love, you feel everything on this earth is yours and you can conquer this whole world with your love, true love.
I stood up and went straight to her folding my love for her in my hands so that she couldn’t see it. I sat beside her this time again taking her hands into mine, feeling the warmth of her love through her veins. We kept looking deep into each other’s eyes for a minute or so and then she then broke the silence, “kya dekh rhe ho?”

I smilingly replied, “I have rights to see you for my whole life now!” and passed her the folded tissue in my hand. She smiled and added, “I wish they remain copyright for me only!” and she started opening it…

I kept staring her, smiling and observed her too closely (Wish I had some magical eyes; you know what I mean) while she was concentrating on the paper. And all of a sudden, she broke into tears which were unexpected. I couldn’t bear that.

I stood up to hug her while she was still crying. I was trying to console her with my love and words; though I was much weak in that, but I tried my level best.

She then said with her childish voice, “Saksham, I am feeling lucky to have you in my life. I never expected that you will win my heart like this. You are so much caring and loving. I feel like kissing you but the atmosphere around here doesn’t allow me to do that. Let’s move out somewhere else please.”

And how could I refuse her, after all I was expecting a kiss from my girl on my first date?

We picked up our bags and went to school ground, hand in hand and sat under the same tree where we used to spend hours.

I kept my head on her lapse and started feeling anxious, obviously. Everything seemed to be very special for that particular second.
First girlfriend, first date, first kiss….. #PRICELESS feeling !!
Rest remains the mystery !

Love, Life & Internet.

We love, from miles away... We talk. We share. We chat. We loved to see each other, often through video chats. We used to make cute faces and often tease each other. We talked for long, whole nights. None of us was aware when the sun rose up. We slept in mornings, often. Our love was set as an example to others. We talked about our day schedule, sometimes about studies, many times about ourselves and often, love making. We were taking care from miles. There was a power of love that was keeping us together.. I remember, how it started with and random friend request, to ‘friends’, and to ‘best friends’, and then, with our understanding, we didn’t need to share our feelings.

Her lustrous lips, her untidy glossy hairs and her shining tiny eyes; those looked more charming while talking on webcam. She looked cute.

One day, we were talking like another day, in our most romantic ways. She looked sad. I asked her many a times, she didn’t reply. There was something that was cooking up in her mind, millions of miles away from here. She wasn’t sharing. I tried every of the best possible way to please her. Suddenly, I came across an idea. It was tough to plan and leave her alone in such a time. But I had to do it. And I decided to leave her alone for next 10 minutes.

I managed everything in next eight minutes. It was time to go back online. I turned on my laptop, sat and kept everything exactly where it was required to be.

She was crying almost when I heard her voice. I asked her many times. And finally, she told. She was crying because of the long distances between us. She wanted to meet me. She wanted to hug me. She wanted to come in my arms. It was enough to show her love. I cheered her up somehow, and asked her to turn on her camera. Her eyes were shining. She told me to turn on my camera.

As soon as my picture popped at her screen, she jumped up with an excitement. She was amazed to see the scene. After all, it was her boyfriend’s surprise. It was a totally different scenario from each day. I had kept a few beautiful candles; few floating in the water and a few shining in the wooden showcase behind me.  She loved and it totally changed her mood. She felt like a princess. She loved it, totally. She told me she had never seen such a beautiful surprise in her life, ever. We talked whole night and made little love.

That night, that was the most romantic night in her and my life. I cherished every single moment spent that night. :)

The SMS conversation !!

‘Hey’,  I texted her at 8:30 pm.

‘Message Sent Successfully’ - The screen displayed.

A shiver of chill ran down my body, as I didn’t plan to share this with anyone..... I was not tensed, but was thinking,  how my girl would react on my decision...

‘Delivered to - ’- TANIYA beeped my NOKIA X2 phone.

I checked my phone at least for couple of times in every 30 seconds. No replies.

I waited and thought about millions of possibilities that could be the reasons for not replying. Had she read message ? Was she busy ? Hope, her mom has not seen the phone....  I went to balcony, I went to roof, and I went to street - so that I could get the best of the network.... But, none worked.  ‘She is my girlfriend... DAMIT !!’ roared my mind every time I checked my phone. 

It was 9:45 pm and I didn’t get any of her reply. A thought of calling her passed across my mind. Checking the time, it was impossible to call her so as to keep her out of any kind of trouble. I looked up in the sky and wished !!!! It was my day or maybe, it was by God’s grace that night, my phone beeped at 9:57 pm. It was her.

‘Hi.. Sry 2 reply late. I was bsy.’

As her boyfriend, I could never stop myself sending her an instant reply. I love her !!

‘Hey. It’s Ok. Hope u r done with uah dinner ?’

‘Yea…ssup ur side?’

‘Nothing much..... Jst ended up wtchng TV. So, Wot r u doin?’

‘Same here... Tired. Off 2 bed’

‘Oh. So u mst b sleepy ?? No probs... Good nite baby, Love you :) :)

‘No, no prob at ol. I can talk... You say, wht r u doin?’

‘I was actually planning smthng.’

‘Say na..,?’

‘Baby.. I was wondering, that I shud write a book.. I donn knw how it came to my mind, but, I want to…’

‘That’s a brilliant idea sweet heart ! J

You are a brilliant writer... U write so well and naughty at times. Loved your idea baby ...

Go for it, I m wid u.’

‘Thank you. But I doNt knw hww to start. How to do it.’

‘Just start up, I am with you. U will do it, I kNow. GO FOR IT . JUST DO IT :* ’

‘Thank u baby. Love you J ’

‘Acha , I m sleepy abi.. and relax. Your babu is wid u , we will do it. Love you. Good night. Miss you J ’

‘Good nyt. Love you 2 ’

Putting my head on the pillow, I decided , I will write one day and I am sure, you will be  reading it  :) :)

Her beauty is the synonym of gorgeousness !

The moment she falls asleep, I can’t resist myself to lay down next to her…
I wanted to spend my entire life gazing at her beautiful kissing eyebrows , the pink lustrous lips, her glossy hairs. Her beauty is the synonym of gorgeousness…
Her cutest expressions while she sleeps, her hands; resting around my waist & She, too close, yet inside my heart.

I wanted to stop the time on that very moment. I felt so complete rewinding every single picture from how we started. And I paused the scene, where she had already slept , right in front of me.
We had a  passionate love-making session that night. She was amazing !

I smiled, and kissed her forehead. She opened her eyes and smiles. We kissed and hugged.
We slept.

As I run my fingers through her hairs and kiss her forehead, she wakes up with a smile holding me
in her arms saying, “I love You, Never leave me alone"...